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  • The long awaited debut LP from NYC’s FLOWER “Hardly A Dream” is finally set to arrive.

    FLOWER’s tedious approach to writing/creating/drawing their debut LP was carefully thought out and the result is a monumental anarcho punk /crust record. 

    “Hardly A Dream” Takes us on a bleak journey through the dark side of society. As soon as you drop the needle a dark atmosphere is immediately created with a slow intro featuring arpeggio guitar work that builds into pummeling d-beat crust. The albums vocals then leave you with a feeling of being crushed by the ever-present weight of living through our modern world of late stage capitalism that was built on the falsehoods of the so called American dream, religious hypocrisy’s, nationalism, and the greed of humankind. 

    FLOWER take many cues from predecessors and are most often (and rightfully so) compared to NAUSEA but they also take a heavy influence from ANTISECT, SACRILEGE & other greats. The artwork has a very RUDIMENTARY PENI feel and the record comes with an amazing 24.5 X 34.75 CRASS style poster jacket. All art work was meticulously hand drawn and overseen by the guitarist Willow in true DIY style and spirit. Willow was also cool enough to draw up a special shirt for the record release featuring an alternative PROFANE EXISTENCE backprint!

    CLICK HERE TO PRE ORDER LP

    CLICK HERE TO PRE ORDER LP WITH SHIRT

    CLICK HERE TO PREVIEW THE ALBUM IN ITS ENTIRETY AT THE PROFANE EXISTENCE BANDCAMP

    FLOWER will be on tour from January 2nd to the 13th

    2nd New Brunswick

    3rd Asheville

    4th Greenville

    5th Birmingham

    6th New Orleans

    7th Hattiesburg

    9th Gainesville

    10th Atlanta

    11th Durham

    12th Richmond

    13th Philadelphia 

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    Crust Hardcore profane existence Punk
  • Finally, the third LP from AGNOSY has arrived! 

    AGNOSY-cover

    Dark, heavy, galloping crust from the streets of London. AGNOSY is back to present us with a ferocious beast of an album that can only be forged by the anger and frustration of living in today’s world. “When Daylight Reveals The Torture” aggressively attacks evils such the current rise of fascism and animal abuse. It intelligently and passionately touches on the Afrin invasion and the revolution in Rojava and shows nothing but utter disgust toward the arrogance of humankind’s lust for greed and power that will inevitably lead us down paths of war and environmental devastation.

    AGNOSY – Live at SCUMFEST in London. 2011

    While lyrically AGNOSY are much more politicly straight forward this time around than on previous releases, musically they have expanded on their sound to create a dark and moody atmosphere while at the same time staying crust as fuck. To say they know what they are doing would be an understatement from this band of vets whose members have played in HIATUS, HEALTH HAZARD, and BEGINNING OF THE END.

    Long galloping intros are followed up by traditional d-beat, fierce solo’s are then meet with vicious vocals and pulverizing bass in a brilliant recording captured by Lewis Johns at The Ranch Production House and was mastered by Brad Boatright at Portland’s legendary Audiosiege. We then pressed on deluxe heavyweight 150-gram vinyl,  printed on reverse board jackets, and included an 11in x 22in gatefold insert to bring you a high quality and truly epic record.  

    Click this link to buy AGNOSY “When Daylight Reveals the Torture” Vinyl

    Click this link Stream or Download from our BANDCAMP page

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  • The legendary crust classic is now available once again!

    Authorized and released in cooperation with MISERY, S.D.S., & MCR Japan & Remastered by Jack Butcher at Enormous Door Studio we are beyond proud to make one one the most rare and sought after crust records available  once again.

    Fuck the scavengers charging punks exuberant amounts of cash on ebay and discogs. We worked meticulously with both bands and with Jack at Enormous door to bring you an updated version that kicks major audio ass while maintaining the original authenticity. 

    Released on deluxe 150 gram vinyl. With an 11×11 inner sleeve. Black Paper Jacket. Reverse Board Jacket.

    Feel free to Stream or Download at our Bandcamp page – HERE

    Buy a physical copy of the Vinyl from our webstore – HERE

    Check out Terminal Sound Nuisance for an outstanding review of the original LP. The review gives insight on not only the music but the records long lasting impact on crust music and why it remains so important to this day. – http://terminalsoundnuisance.blogspot.com/2013/06/misery-sds-pain-in-suffering-future.html
    S.D.S.
    MISERY

    Earlier this year we re-issued this legendary LP and sold over 950 copies in just 4 short months. For this second pressing we pressed 490 copies on Krystal Clear & 485 on Grey Vinyl with Black Mist.

    Crystal Clear (Bullet belt no included)
    Grey With Black Mist (Bullet belt no included)
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  • Stench crust the way it was meant to be played!

    The UK crust scene of the 1980’s inspired band after band but no other band has ever reincarnated the sound of that time as well as SWORDWIELDER. Quite simply if you like crust, then this the album you have waited decades for.

    Package includes- 
    LP pressed on deluxe 150-gram vinyl. 
    Reverse board jacket 
    Printed inner sleeve 
    11×17 poster

    Stream album for free or download for a small fee here – https://profaneexistence.bandcamp.com/album/swordwielder-system-overlord-lp

    Buy Vinyl here – https://profaneexistence.bandcamp.com/album/swordwielder-system-overlord-lp

    Review by Craig Hayes from “Your Last Rites”… 
    Swordwielder – System Overlord 
    Heavyweight punk fanatics take note: System Overlord is a fucking triumph. The long-awaited sophomore album from Gothenburg stenchcore band Swordwielder is a brooding behemoth, constructed from the filthiest and heftiest strains of punk and metal. System Overlord shimmers with apocalyptic visions, and it’s overflowing with all the grim atmospherics and intimidating intensity that defines consummate crushing crust.

    Too much hype? No way… And no apologies, either. Swordwielder deal in definitive stenchcore on System Overlord, and much like their full-length debut, 2013’s Grim Visions of Battle, the band’s latest release is a knockout. Swordwielder’s harsh, gruff and dark sound owes a significant debt to old school icons like Amebix, Axegrinder, Deviated Instinct, and Antisect, and they mix and mangle their influences and leave ’em to rot on the battlefield.

    Plenty of hammering rage drives System Overlord tracks like “Violent Revolution,” “Savage Execution” and “Cyborgs,” and thundering epics like “Corrupt Future” and “Northern Lights” exhibit subtler strengths, mixing guttural growls and clean vocals with crashing percussion and dirge-laden riffs. Connoisseurs of corpse-dragging crust will love the brute-force belligerence of “Absolute Fear,” “Nuclear Winter,” and “Second Attack,” which rain down like merciless mortar barrages. As a rule, all of System Overlord‘s mammoth tracks chug and churn with grinding muscle, while reeking of squalor and decay.

    Swordwielder exudes tightly coiled aggression from start to finish here—songs rise from the ashes of desolation, and resounding calls for action and resistance ring loud. If you’re a fan of heavy-hitters like Fatum, War//Plague, Carnage, Zygome, Cancer Spreading or (insert your favorite hefty crust crew here), System Overlord‘s trampling tempo and strapping sound are bound to appeal.

    Crust profane existence swordwielder
  •  We are happy to announce our next new release

    WILT – “Self Titled” 

    WILT combine old school metal and crust in a perfect hybrid that very few others have ever achieved. Prepare for a LP thats equal parts galloping d-beat crust reminiscent of bands like HELLSHOCK, and INSTINCT OF SURVIVAL, meets old school death metal in the vein of BOLT THROWER, MEMORIAM (old) SEPULTURA.

     

    Here is a track from the upcoming LP

    https://profanexistence.files.wordpress.com/2017/03/02-sermon-for-the-bootlickers.wav

     

    “Sermon for the Bootlickers”

    Despite the inculcation of helplessness within each there remains great power. Ill at ease with such makes us ill. Learn to see the hand that feeds for what it is. You’ve been fooled if you think you’ve got no power. Refuse to be reduced to a consumer you’re a human being. Define yourself by more than wealth. Define yourself as a human. You don’t need what you’re being sold. Bend your knee to no authority but your own mind. You have the power to avoid the gilded trap. Avarice is what you’re conditioned for. Break the mold discover what’s really valuable to you. 

    WILT will be on in Europe this July / August will ELECTROZOMBIES From Chile

    Wed, July 12 Hanover / Germany / Confirmed
    Thu, July 13 Bremen  
    Fri, July 14 Mulhem / Germany / Confirmed  
    Sat, July 15 Gent, Belgium / CrustPicnic / Confirmed
    Sun, July 16 Paris / France or Amsterdam / Nederland  
    July 18 North-East France or West Germany 
    July 19 Freiburg / Germany TBC 
    July 20 Winterthur / Switzerland 
    Fri, July 21 Zurich / Switzerland
    Sat, July 22 Biel / Switzerland 
    July 23 Lausanne or Geneva / Switzerland 
    July 24 Geneva / Switzerland or Grenoble france
    July 25 Treviso (or Milano or Bologna or Verona) / Italy
    July 26 Ljubljana Slovenia Confirmed
    July 27 No Sanctuary chilling day
    Fri, July 28 NoSanctuary Confirmed
    Sat, July 29 NoSanctuary Confirmed
    July 30 Ilirska Bistrica/Slovenia or Vienna/Austria or Budapest/Hungary.
    July 31 Wiena / Austrai or Budapest or / Slovakia
    August 1 Brno / Czech Republic.
    August 2 Prague / Czech Republic
    August 3 Finsterwalde / Germany TBC
    Fri, August 4 Leipzig / Germany TBC
    Sat, August 5 Berlin / Germany / confirmed
    August 6 Dresden
    August 7 Wroclaw / Poland
    August 8 Warsaw / Poland
    August 9 Poznan / Poland
    August 10 Szczecin/Poland TBC
    Fri, August 11 Rostock / confirmed
    Sat, August 12 Hamburg TBC
     

    For this in the Seattle or surrounding area you can catch WILT this Saturday April first at Highline Bar with NOOTHGRUSH from Oakland.

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Violence comes in many different forms

  • April 24, 2012
  • by stinkbot
  • · Features · PE Web Zine

Editors note:

The following article/column was written, not only as therapy but with the purpose of bringing to light the fact that there is domestic abuse within the punk community. The author wishes to remain anonymous and may post more in the future. With that, please read on and comment if you see fit.

How could I let this happen? How could I allow myself to fall into such a deep pit? Why do I keep going back to him? What is wrong with me? How do I get out of this situation? I need help!!!!!

These were the sentiments that ran through my being during one of the lowest points in my life. I married an abuser, a manipulator, a liar, and a selfish man. I had no idea. I thought I was marrying my prince and I was going to live happily ever after. HA! Once my prince got out of prison, he turned into a beast right before my eyes.

At first it was very subtle. There were signs here and there that he was not the man I thought he was or that he claimed to be. Outbursts of anger directed at me, clinginess, lack of direction/purpose in life, sharp criticism of others, lack of communication, lack of romance, putting the burden of keeping the relationship together on my shoulders. If I would be upset because of his behavior towards me, he would say, “You’re the stronger one. You need to hold it together.”

He knew exactly where my soft spots were. He knew how to get me to doubt myself and to cast myself into the land of confusion. He liked it when I dwelled there because then he could manipulate and control me much easier.

Then it got worse. Drinking and partying, not coming home days at a time, taking trips without me, sleeping with other women, lying, neglect, blaming me, cursing me, and being outright cruel. I left once early on in the relationship, hoping he would understand that what was happening was not acceptable to me, but I was only gone for a few days. I felt sorry for him and so went back. I was functioning as a total co-dependent/enabler and didn’t even know it.

Marriage is a complex institution. On the one hand, I respect the aspect of making a commitment to another person to be monogamous and to walk with them through the good, the bad, and the ugly. But on the other hand, it can be used by abusers as a means of control, and it can also make it harder for the victim to leave. This was so in my situation. He would bring up our marriage vows a lot, how I’m supposed to stand by him no matter what, that I’m his wife so I should have sex with him even when I don’t want to….that type of thing.

How awful right? What an abuse of power and of another human soul. Thankfully, now that I am out of this relationship, I have different views about marriage altogether.

About a year into this thing and I was a wreck. I would be driving down the street and burst into tears , saying out-loud, “I need help, I need help!” I finally overcame my pride and started to see a counselor at the YWCA. That was the beginning of my journey back to sanity. She taught me about the difference between healthy relationships and unhealthy relationships. About the cycle of abuse, about how domestic violence is not just a physical act but can also be sexual and emotional, both of which I was experiencing. She gave me a mirror to help me better understand the situation I was in. I didn’t like what I saw but whenever I put the mirror down, I slipped right back into the same behavior and thought patterns.

After I ended counseling, I started going to Al-anon meetings and reading a bunch of their literature. This was a huge help to me as well. It was there I started to learn about co-dependency and its destructiveness. I found a group meeting I really liked (and that was in biking distance!) and people who understood what I was going through. But most important, I realized that I was putting my husband’s needs above my own and that I needed to tear down the existing framework and rebuild a new one. Somewhere along the way, he made himself the center of the relationship. If our relationship was represented by a circle, its like he walked right to the middle of the circle, took a shit, laid down, and stayed there. He expected me to carry his weight and dwell in his toxic space, which I did—but only for a season.

Its tricky being a woman in an abusive relationship. We are, by nature, nurturers. We want to help. We want to give, we want to support. We have a high tolerance for suffering and pain. We also still live in a patriarchal society where violence is the norm, not the exception, which makes it harder to realize when domestic violence is taking place, especially if its emotional, financial, or sexual. Men know this, and consciously or unconsciously, they use it to their advantage.

This is how the typical cycle of abuse goes in an unhealthy relationship. They hurt us in some way. We get upset and angry. They promise to do better. They say they love us and can’t live without us. We like hearing that. It makes us feel good. We want to help them. We want the relationship to work (if not for our sake, then the children’s sake). They romance us and make sweet love to us and we are hooked. We see a shimmer of the person we fell in love with and it gives us hope. Then the abuse starts all over again. The only way to end the cycle is not for the other person to magically change or stop doing what they are doing, but to GET OUT.

For many of us, if we are experiencing abuse, we keep it quiet. We are ashamed to talk about it. We don’t want to expose ourselves or our partner. We feel shame, guilt, hopeless, helpless, angry, afraid….. At one point in my relationship, I felt so stuck, not having the faith and courage to leave but knowing that staying meant dying inside. For the first time in my life I briefly contemplated suicide. Briefly.

The cycle of abuse is the same no matter your gender, religion, ethnicity, class, sexual orientation. It is a scientific reality. What I want to stress here is how powerful the oppressor can be and how easy it is to get sucked up into this cycle, no matter who you are, no matter what you stand for. Abusers also come from all different walks of life. My husband grew up in the punk scene and is still a part of it this day. I guess for him its more about social status than conscious awareness.

I was considered by those who knew me to be a strong minded, hard headed woman. I was my own person, an individual who could take care of herself, who could handle life’s blows and take them in stride. I had confidence and an inner peace. I never thought I would fall prey to the ravishes of an abuser. He almost destroyed my spirit. I was to the point where I was going to settle for being in a slave-like situation and make the best of it. I gave him that much power over me! It wasn’t until he physically abused me that I finally split. This time I left the state.

Its been two months now that I have been gone. Funny thing is, the abuse hasn’t stopped. Any way that he can subtly put me down he will. I realize he feels that I owe him my life somehow, like a wild beast whose food has been taken away from him. He wants me but realizes he can’t possess my soul—so instead of loving me and setting me free, he wants to destroy that which he can’t have.

At first, he was very verbally abusive towards me, calling me all kinds of names: coward, run-away, a fake , a phony, a horrible mom…the list goes on and on. Now he has settled down somewhat though he still expects me to get back together with him if/when he gets sober. Not realizing he has many more deep seated issues to deal with than just substance abuse.

I still find myself falling into the guilt trap. Why don’t I call him more? I don’t care about him. I help out everyone else but him. Where’s my compassion? This is just some of the butter he lays on me and some of it I have let penetrate to where I will call him or text him to see how he’s doing. But luckily, I’m in recovery/rebuilding mode and am scruitinizing my thoughts, behaviors, and those of the people around me. Other people too have been a sounding board for me which has been essential to staying away from him.

Today is a new day. It has been a long roller coaster ride but I can see the road beginning to straighten itself out and that is encouraging. In all of this, one of the hardest things to face is how I let myself get sucked into this relationship in the first place, why I stayed so long, and how even today, there is still a heart string or two of mine attached to him.

Abusers are very good at what they do and they tend to be attracted to compassionate people with high self esteem. If you have fallen prey to an abuser or are in an abusive situation, know that you can escape. One of the first steps is to let someone you trust know what is going on. Don’t be ashamed. What is happening to you is not because of anything you’ve done. You are with a sick person who is feeding off you and your strength. They are trying to suck it all out for themselves. You are caught in a spider’s web. Realize that if you stay for the long haul, you will eventually get eaten from the inside out. You will become an empty shell. And you could end up losing your life.

Self-respect and confidence in ourselves help us to keep our heads held high and our vision clear. When we are in an abusive relationship, our heads bow down and we can only see the ground. You are valuable in this world. There are people who need you to be strong and emotionally healthy: your children, your friends, your siblings, your nieces and nephews, your students…..whoever is in your life, if you can’t do it for yourself, do it for them. Do it for all of us. Because the more each of us walks away from abusive relationships and says, “No more!”, the less abuse will be tolerated in our society.

Note: I wrote this article associating abusers with men and victims with women. I realize that men also experience domestic violence and women can be the perpetrators. I also used generalizations regarding gender. I realize as well that not all women have a dominant feminine nature and not all men have a dominant masculine nature. For sure! We are all our own people!

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